Thanks Doc, I'm sorry you went through such a hard time, but for what it's worth, I think I can empathise.
My biggest hurdle to overcome, is guilt. Could I have been a better carer? I gave 24hrs a day to caring for Mary, but I still analyse what I did as a carer, am I a failure? No I don't think so, I did my very best.
However, Mary is now well looked after and we go out three times a week. She seems much happier and is quite content where she is (7 miles from Colchester)
My eternal thanks go to Essex County Council who's social work department arranged the whole thing. I admit I had some sort of breakdown but they couldn't have been better. I dread to think what might have been if they had not stepped in.
Over the years as a carer, I became very bitter - not to Mary but to anything I could, the big question is why can such a super gentle person be struck down, yet the low life's that kill and maim people are perfectly healthy. God is a vile arrogant pig.
I'm afraid my inherent anger was manifested in these forums, and I apologise for that. I know I upset dozens of members and they have a right to hate me. I don't ask for forgiveness- I hate me too.
Anyway, I feel better saying all that, thanks for being a mate.
Col