Message exclusively for Colin.
I see you have made another shall we say, "Post" - no need to describe it... I wanted to bring to your attention a book called "The Power of Now" - by Eckhart Tolle... Tolle also provides many YouTube videos which are excellent.
Once upon a time we didn't talk. There is a major part of the mind that runs perfectly well without the use of speech, without thought, it has to because once we never had thought, in the sense of words. Words are a technology, an invention of humans. Therefore it is logical to assume we never had the constant bickering at ourselves, the constant anger, the constant negativeness within us. It cannot exist if there are no words.
At some stage the mind effectively divided itself into the real you and the "little you". There is the true you, the real you, this is always a nice pleasant being that is the essence of us all, even Donald Trump!
Once you are aware of this, use that awareness to watch the thoughts generated by the "little mind", the automatic negative thoughts "ANTS" coursing through your brain. Once you are aware, once you master this step, once you can take that step, then there is light at the end of the tunnel.
It is possible to free yourself from your "little mind" as Eckhart Tolle a would term it.. This automatic "little mind" can take you over, and can actually lead you to suicide. In one of his videos Tolle very cleverly turns this around and suggests that you swap the suicide, and instead of killing yourself, cause the actual destruction of the "little mind" the mind that provides the aggravated irritated aggressive negativeness.
In essence you can actually destroy the "little mind" not with any power, not with will power, not with magic, but just by watching what it does, not judging it, that's the most important thing. The not judging extends to when you find yourself angry, frustrated, aggressive, negative... what ever emotion.
Your "little mind" will turn to you and say you failed your quest, if the "little mind" does that, it is just taking you over again! So that's the trick, when the negative "the little mind" surfaces to take control, do not beat yourself up, smile and accept it.
You will get better and better at the noticing and the strength of the negativeness will gradually reduce...