speakers_86
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What the hell am I going to do with it??
I am tired of trying to figure out where I fit in life.
I am currently a water damage technician working for my dad, but his company is about to go out of business. He is struggling to keep it going, but if I leave, thats it, doors closed (I'm the only technician).
I could go and work for a competitor, which I am thinking very seriously of doing. I could take a class and become an insurance adjuster. Or I could finish school and do God-knows-what, but that would mean a third attempt at Intermediate Accounting III. Man has that class whipped my @$$. I have discovered that I don't even like accounting. If I do go back to school, what the hell for? I still don't know what I want to do. I once was thinking about going into db design (whatever that field is called), but I am not so sure I want to do that for the rest of my life. Yes, it's a fun hobby of mine, but do I want to sit behind a desk debugging software I don't even care about? In fact, do I want to sit behind a desk at all? I think that is why I am hesitant to finish school. I don't think that I want to. Maybe that's why I like being a water damage technician, I am road. Don't have to sit behind a desk. Plus it is very rewarding. When I perform work, I can see what I have accomplished (ie, the house is dry when I am done).
None of those options seems very appealing to me. I feel like there is no where to go. Today I began pondering (I say pondering because its just a thought) enlisting in the military, something I thought of doing senior year of high school. Just because I have no money, hardly have a job, and after a year of being on my own, am now moving back with my parents because of the economy. Really, what reason do I have not to? I would get regular checks (that won't bounce), housing, and work out all the time. I love going to the gym, but as a water tech I have irregular hours, so it is hard to keep a schedule.
When I step back and ask myself what I want to do, I don't know. I feel like that guy in office space, who says he wants to do nothing. That's me. But of course, unless I want to be homeless, that is not exactly an option.
And to top this all off, I have no friends. So I have to resort to family or ranting endlessly on the internet.
I guess I just feel like my life isn't where it should be right now. I feel like I should have a job, though a stable one, ready to start my career, living comfortably in an apartment, ready to settle down with someone and start thinking about kids in the next ~3 years. Of course, that is not where I am. In fact, none of those goals are even close to met. Growing up (as a child), I had my entire life planed out. I was going to join the army to get through college (my family was poor, and may be again soon ), and be an astronaut.
Depressing isn't it. Maybe this is why I have a hard time getting out of bed in the morning, or getting away from my computer screen, or stop searching this forum late into the night long after everyone has stopped posting.
That's it for now. Sorry for the rant.
I am tired of trying to figure out where I fit in life.
I am currently a water damage technician working for my dad, but his company is about to go out of business. He is struggling to keep it going, but if I leave, thats it, doors closed (I'm the only technician).
I could go and work for a competitor, which I am thinking very seriously of doing. I could take a class and become an insurance adjuster. Or I could finish school and do God-knows-what, but that would mean a third attempt at Intermediate Accounting III. Man has that class whipped my @$$. I have discovered that I don't even like accounting. If I do go back to school, what the hell for? I still don't know what I want to do. I once was thinking about going into db design (whatever that field is called), but I am not so sure I want to do that for the rest of my life. Yes, it's a fun hobby of mine, but do I want to sit behind a desk debugging software I don't even care about? In fact, do I want to sit behind a desk at all? I think that is why I am hesitant to finish school. I don't think that I want to. Maybe that's why I like being a water damage technician, I am road. Don't have to sit behind a desk. Plus it is very rewarding. When I perform work, I can see what I have accomplished (ie, the house is dry when I am done).
None of those options seems very appealing to me. I feel like there is no where to go. Today I began pondering (I say pondering because its just a thought) enlisting in the military, something I thought of doing senior year of high school. Just because I have no money, hardly have a job, and after a year of being on my own, am now moving back with my parents because of the economy. Really, what reason do I have not to? I would get regular checks (that won't bounce), housing, and work out all the time. I love going to the gym, but as a water tech I have irregular hours, so it is hard to keep a schedule.
When I step back and ask myself what I want to do, I don't know. I feel like that guy in office space, who says he wants to do nothing. That's me. But of course, unless I want to be homeless, that is not exactly an option.
And to top this all off, I have no friends. So I have to resort to family or ranting endlessly on the internet.
I guess I just feel like my life isn't where it should be right now. I feel like I should have a job, though a stable one, ready to start my career, living comfortably in an apartment, ready to settle down with someone and start thinking about kids in the next ~3 years. Of course, that is not where I am. In fact, none of those goals are even close to met. Growing up (as a child), I had my entire life planed out. I was going to join the army to get through college (my family was poor, and may be again soon ), and be an astronaut.
Depressing isn't it. Maybe this is why I have a hard time getting out of bed in the morning, or getting away from my computer screen, or stop searching this forum late into the night long after everyone has stopped posting.
That's it for now. Sorry for the rant.